Todays the day ive half dreaded and half be looking forward to. Corey is going to butlins with his nanny Thursday to sunday, doesn’t sound very long but hes never been that far away for that long. Im excited for him but sad for myself to be missing out. But hes excited and is currently sat with his bags waiting for them to pick him up even though its hours before they come to collect him ha ha.
He had a moment earlier where he suddenly realised he was going alone. He knew we weren’t coming but when I said youll have to face time me and show me your holiday bed he look at me confused and then said but ill miss you and you will be sad. My heart strings tucked HARD! I told him I will miss you abit to but im so happy your going to have the best time and then we did this…
This is something ive seen a few times over social media so decided to give it ago in hopes it wouldn’t lead to him having tears. So we draw our hearts. This will obviously wash off over the trip so I said this is where we can tell each others hearts we miss and love them. So when your sad you rub your heart and my heart will know and I will call you straight away!! He seemed pleased by this and it at least got through the moment of sadness. Weve been building up sleep overs at nannys one night to 2-3 nights, by the 3rd night hes usually asking to come home so fingers crossed with whats going on around him at butlins and the excitement he wont have time to miss home. Myself on the other hand will cry daily ha ha hopefully not but I am abit emotionally about it. I hate to miss a moment of there lives even a second so going to somewhere where we have had so many lovely memories and happiness im sad for me ha ha selfish I know. He will have the best time and I trust his nanny with my life so I know hes in safe hands and I cant wait to hear all about.
One of the reasons I started this blog was to document daily life. A way to look back on memories the good and bad. This post was more for myself to remember his first little holiday away and my thoughts.
Butlins take care of my boy!! ha ha